I had been doing my massage business for over 18 years and have massaged over 14,000 bodies and the first part of March 2020 the businesses I was going into for chair massage wouldn’t let anyone but employees in, and then the following week, all my office people got sent home to do their work. So I have not made any income since then. Salt Lake health Department shut all of massage down on 30 March 2020 until 1 May 2020. I thought I couldn’t start doing massage then, but my clients are still not back in the offices and it is 11 July 2020. I started to apply for the CARES act as well as a grant from Salt Lake county, but I really don’t trust what the consequences would be. I talked with my tax man, and he told me if I got anything, he was pretty sure I would have to pay it back. I have talked with several independent contractors and they applied, but still have not received compensation. It has been stressful for me, my son and his girlfriend live with us in our home and she is pregnant and hasn’t been able to work like she would like, just because she feels sick from the baby. My boyfriend still has his job, but our income got cut in half and I have lost thousands of dollars since March. I do not see massage ever getting back to where it was, I have always worked and made very good money and now my career is gone that I worked so hard for and put my body thru constant strain. I have to find another career and it won’t be easy, especially when I focused so much of my attention on helping people. It has mentally affected me, because I like working and helping people, and now I feel like I am kind of worthless. I have been working on my yard a lot to keep sane, but it doesn’t pay the bills. I have been living off my credit cards, but that only lasts so long. I don’t even believe this virus thing is anything, especially to ruin so many lives, there are more deadly things out there. My kids friend killed himself because he was afraid he was going to get the virus and lose his job, he was under 30 years old. This whole thing is a nightmare that you can never wake up from!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!